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It’s been awhile since I’ve blogged to blog, I have so much on my mind and in my heart I wanted to share just a little of my feelings today. The past few years we’ve been empty nesters and while I’ve loved the alone time Scott and I have had I still miss hearing “mom” and “Jackie” from our little rugrats that filled my days with errands, love, extra wash, and meals. Those were the best days ever! I’m so proud of the fine individuals they have become though, each on their path to do good and be good, what more could I want? They are healthy, happy, kind, respectful, hard workers, I could go on and on. In the last month we’ve been able to spend time with all of our children, not at the same time, but that’s okay. We cherish every moment we can get, even if it’s face time or photos. Our family has always been our priority and consumed the largest part of our heart. What an honor it is to be a “mother” and I don’t take the role lightly. As Scott and I have been given this health trial to learn and grow from I’m always wondering if I’m setting a good example for our children in how to deal with hard times. I hope so, I’m trying. I’ll admit, I’m tired of talking about cancer and I’m so beyond tired of hearing about “cancer” on the tv, radio, conversations, everywhere. Walk in the mall, a billboard about cancer. How is one to forget about it when it’s so in your face. Sometimes I wonder if the reason there isn’t a cure is there is so much money being made centered around cancer. It makes me crazy!
A weed is no more than a flower in disguise.
- anonymous -
So if a weed is a flower in disguise, is cancer a blessing in disguise? I say yes! My heart has never hurt so much and my eyes continue to fill with tears but I know without a doubt the Lord is blessing us more than we could have imagined. We recently had all of the tests done on Scott – his peripheral vision is all back, he still has double vision but he is improving – the tumor on his lung has shrank have the size again – the tumor in his head is now so small they would not consider surgery, in the beginning it was so large three dr.’s would not even think of touching it. Miracles, blessings?! YES! Tomorrow we start the final round of IL2, it’s the hardest, scariest, four weeks! Last time we were in the hospital a lady endured six doses and passed away, the time before we met a sweet couple but he could not handle the drug and has since passed on, these situations remind me again how blessed we are. I’m grateful for the experiences we’ve had together, we’ve cried, laughed, grown much closer together and our relationship with our Lord is what gives us the strength to push ahead. We know we have many family members and friends who pray for us and we love and appreciate you more than you’ll know!
There are always flowers for those who want to see them.
- Henri Matisse -
I humored myself with this idea of blue Easter egg lips for Juliet.
hmmmm, what is this?
didn’t take her long to enjoy my humor
after all who doesn’t paint their lips at Easter.
now be sure to click on over and visit Liz to see her take on humor 
while this may look like just another trip to the Morton Arboretum on a beautiful spring day it was so much more than that for me. Scott finally felt up to walking around with me so I took advantage of this good day and we walked places we had never been. It’s interesting how going through trials really makes me appreciate every moment we have together!
“Cultivate an attitude of happiness. Cultivate a spirit of optimism. Walk with faith, rejoicing in the beauties of nature, in the goodness of those you love, in the testimony which you carry in your heart concerning things divine.”
–Gordon B. Hinckley
and this is what we came back with. This idea was inspired by this post on Davina Fear’s blog. Her blog is full of ideas to keep your family active and making memories. Scott and I did this January 2nd (yep, I’m slow) after rough year, I wanted to start this year doing things different, making and creating new memories. I hesitantly asked Scott at lunch if he’d be up for having some fun. He gave me the look and said sure. So I told him we would go to Target and for fifteen minutes we would go through the store separately and take photo’s of what reminded us of each other. It was so much fun! We would run into each other and laugh or spy on one another.
this set is what reminds me of Scott.
and this is what Scott came back with.
it’s a given that we will grow old but we don’t have to be boring doing it! What do you do to add spice to your life? I love new ideas if you care to share.
I hesitated participating this time because we are in the hospital all week long for IL2 treatment. but…it’s my life, it’s my story, our story, and everything is going to be alright!
The route I take to avoid the crazy freeway traffic to the hospital is lined on both sides with cemeteries, funny?! I can’t say there is any eatery I’d like to try out but I do like the look of aged buildings.
two benefits from being in MICU is he has his own room and has had great nurses! my one pet peeve is that they leave caps on the floor all. the. time.
good morning Honey, time to get cleaned up!
and rest. some more.
next in the circle is Kristi. Hope you enjoy our 10 on 10 projects!
I can’t believe how time flies…Juliet went to the dr. for her four month check up and the dr. said she weighs 15 lbs and is 25 1/4 inches tall.
Looks to me she is two feet tall
most importantly she is developing well and is healthy!
I was so excited to end our year with Scott traveling for work instead of traveling to dr. appts. I flew into SLC a couple of days before him so I had the pleasure of welcoming him home…with camera in hand of course.
this little guy had grown so much and as you will see I think every little smile, quirky face, boogie nose, is the best all the way to his cute little toes!
oh my I have a bazillion photo’s of these moments…priceless!
Scott has always been the wrapper in the family. (as I type that I laugh because he is far from a rapper) anyway back to what I was saying, so he wraps and I add the finishing touches. It’s worked great for us and if Stockton learns Grandpa’s skills he’ll make his wife so happy. oh wait, let’s not go there yet!
we had so much fun with him!
I made the balls for him for Christmas…he’s still young enough he can play with them before and after and all is well.
oh that Grandpa is soooo funny!
i found this game on Pinterest and it was fun! aren’t we the artists.
time to dig in and then tell his friends what he got…
what? those balls aren’t for me?
oh the cute kid is the cool kid too!
and he’s going to be a big brother in August.
Grandma had fun crawling and chasing and hiding under the blanket.
for the last few years holidays gifts usually are branded with a Nikon logo so this was really a change and one I will treasure forever! thank you honey!
one of my faves of the trip…
since we’ve been gone those little feet have learned how to jump. before long he’ll want the cape and be jumping off the bed.
and when he bumps his head (if we are there) Grandpa will be the first to make it better. for sure!
I’ve been very excited with how good Scott has been feeling!!! His eye has been moving more and his headaches have gone away. What a “change”! He had a MRI on his brain before Christmas to see if the radiation worked but we didn’t find out the result of it until January 3rd and we couldn’t believe the news…the tumor had “changed”…it shrank some. whoooot whoot! Then he had an eye appt. on the 5th to see what could be done to help with the double vision and the dr. could not get over the “change” in his eye movement! Yes! bring on the change! So they put a piece of prism plastic on his lens so he doesn’t have to wear a patch now. That’s a big “change” since he’s been wearing it since about July. After all that we went through last year with getting bad news this is such a huge change I can’t believe it.
Now Grandpa and Stockton will have to change how they play but that’s okay! I LOVE this bottom picture of them…precious!
2012 I’ve been so excited for you to get here! I found this image/thought on pinterest and love it! I’m committing to myself to make the best of whatever is to come.
2011 was one hard year on me because I allowed it to be. I’ve realized that I need to take better care of myself spiritually and physically. I’m ready for the challenge and growth that I know can happen when I put forth the effort.
